Blogging and I have a… unique relationship, to say the least.
It seems like the perfect medium for me. I love words- eloquently expressing my inner thoughts through language. My fascination with language goes so deep, going all the way back to my early childhood. It’s one of the things that has held my fascination throughout my entire life.
Both of my parents spent the 2000s and 2010s blogging. Before that, even, my mother had a newsletter all about natural hair. They would use blogging and social media sites like Twitter to talk about all kinds of topics, often afrocentric ones. I always thought it was so cool and inspiring. I always admired the medium and the heart that went into their work.
When I logged into the Weebly platform to create this new blog, I found my old blog posts from middle school, and what I found shocked me a little. Several of them were absurdly negative- almost sadistic in tearing down those I deemed unworthy. The reality is that I felt unworthy, for many reasons, and that bitterness was eating me alive from the inside out. Sometimes I wish that I could go back and relive those years, focusing more on the positive- rather than letting bullshit that I didn’t like take up so much of my energy. I wonder if that’s part of my problem now. I spend a hell of a lot of time worrying about what others are doing rather than focusing on myself.
So here I am, years later, trapped in a cycle of negativity yet again, and trying to find my way back to the version of myself that was full of life- who had passion and drive. Trying to let go of egocentrism and perfectionism and experience life and create art again. Hopefully this can be a step in the right direction. A place where I can earnestly express my thoughts, sort through them, and hopefully allow the spirit that lies dormant inside of me to resurface. If nothing else, it’ll give me something to do.
As far as content, I think the name gives an idea of the vibe that I’m going for. I want to talk about any and everything that interests me and that is important to me. I want to talk about things like wellness, the arts, language, and Blackness, among many others. I hope that you’ll join me on what I’m calling a journey of self–rediscovery and reclamation.